This weekend, is supposed to be the most wonderful, uplifting, joyous weekend for those that belong to the Church Of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. . . It is Conference weekend. A weekend where the leaders of this faith, speak to all, and offer guidance, support, and love. I love conference weekend...normally. This weekend, however not so much.
Instead of feeling uplifted, and like I am headed in the right direction, I feel like I am falling farther behind. Why? Because I am a MAJOR SLACKER! When it comes to goal setting, and accomplishing those goals... I am the sloth at the back of the line, that not only doesn't cross the finish line, I don't even come close. Well, to be fair, a sloth would most likely finish the race...just at its own pace. I am not even in the running. The great thing is however, there is always room to improve and grow right? Maybe it's time to dust of the vision board I have always wanted to complete.
Anyway... this isn't meant to be a poor me post...nor a lengthy one. It's meant to wake me up, make me accountable. There are things that I want to accomplish, it is time that I start listing them and rocking it!
Don't worry, no list will be posted yet- I have to write it... I have to complete it. And I will. Because the one thing this weekend has reminded me. I am loved beyond measure, even with all of my shortcomings and the time is now to remember to love myself too.
Sunday, April 7, 2019
Friday, March 29, 2019
Here We Are...in 2019
So, I was desperately searching for a photo of my beloved Kokoro. I thought I had saved it to my Icloud...but to no avail, it was not there. Grasping at any straw I could find, I came across my old blog... and there it was, the photo I had been searching for. Then all of a sudden, I realized that there are things on this blog, that I NEVER want to lose... and why not add to those things? I've always loved the idea of blogging. I am just not good at it. So, while I will never bee a pro at this... I do want to share some of my memories here- because one day, I will search for this stuff, and this will become the first place that I look.
Welcome back.
Let's get this thing started.
Welcome back.
Let's get this thing started.
Sunday, July 26, 2015
Welcome freedom!
It's truly amazing! I've had it 3 weeks and I can't imagine life without it. Because of the peace of mind it give me, my glucose control is already better. I no longer get anxious when I exercise because I can see if I am dropping instead of feel a crash and binge on juice to try to bring it back up. If i have to run into the store- I don't have to pack "hermoine's handbag" with me, I can run in and not worry.
This is technology at its finest :)
Sunday, July 5, 2015
A post from the past.
I had this post hidden in my "drafts" folder, and thought that it should be shared. Part of the reason is, it explains a tiny bit of what I have been dealing with for the past 7 months. I don't know why I never posted it- but here is
Ok, So I started a post at the beginning of the year, and tried to promise that I would blog more.. yeah. That Didn't happen. Why? Well, number one I am busy. Number two- I start a blog, think it doesn't make sense, worry that it doesn't make sense, and say "to heck with it, no one reads this thing anymore anyway." I then take a break from blogging for years at a time, and wish when I come across a blog I ABSOLUTELY ADORE that I would have blogged more.
So what's been going on lately? Let me just fill you in on the last 30 days. My brain has a hard enough time remembering that far :)
I started Yoga. -Insert pretty pose here-
In an effort to ground myself, become more flexible, and shed some of the (I've been married and too busy to care about what I look like) weight. I need to get back to where I was when I was actively studying martial arts, I can't just dive into it, because I don't want injuries...hence, a great friend of mine invited me to come to a yoga class she takes. After much deliberation, I went. I was nervous, but excited at the same time. Let me just cut to the chase- I was made much less nervous when I found that the Yoga instructor is also my Martial Arts instructor's sister! Yup, I knew her already! So anyway, I've been going for about the last month- and even though I have frustrations with it, and hate it a good chunk of the time (this will be a completely different post) I still go, and I still deep down, LOVE it.
I went to a breath work class last Thursday... I have never done anything like that, but in an effort to help with my lymphedema, and also in further grounding myself and finding a deeper meditation, I tried it. HOLY CRAP IT WAS WIERD!!!! Again, this will be in another post...
What I really wanted to discuss was what happened after the breath work class…
It was about 9:00pm when the breath work class ended. it had been raining, and snowing a tiny bit while I was held up in that oh so very interesting class- the roads however, were clear, and I wasn't nervous. I was too hyped up from trying to process what had just happened for the last two hours. I said my goodbyes to those that I knew, grabbed my blanket and pillow (Required for the class) and headed to the Jeep. John and I usually talk on the phone whenever I am headed to or from somewhere- especially if it is in an area that I don't normally travel. I quickly called him (I have a headset, no laws are broken here) and started explaining the events that just took place. As I got closer to home the snow started to fall again, and quite a bit harder. No worries, I am in the Jeep and it does GREAT in bad weather. On my way home from Yoga, I usually turn onto North Temple from 300 W, right where the Overpass and the Trax Station are. I headed the same direction from this class. Up until this point this has never been an issue, although this was pretty much the first storm of the year. As I got closer to this area, I heard myself say "don't turn here, go a different way." Of course, being that I was so involved in the story that I was telling, I didn't listen. I turned onto North Temple and was immediately hit with ice, lots and lots of ice. I slowed right down and tried to breathe. Still talking to John, I figured I would be just fine. I advanced up the overpass, and immediately slid into the cement barrier. I shrieked and told John what was happening as my heart began to race and my hands clenched the steering wheel as tight as they could- like that was going to save me. I corrected myself, and slowly moved forward, making sure i stayed in my lane and straight. Things were going fine and BAM! I was hit from behind, knocking me forward and sliding, back into the cement barrier. There was nothing I could do, but try to keep straight, as I slid down the hill. Cars behind me hitting each other, which eventually sent the one that hit me originally back into the side of me. I kept hitting the cement barrier, and hoping that things were going to turn out fine. I looked in the lane next to me, and cars were sliding down it backwards. This was bad. John said that I was screaming on the phone, and he told me to calm down, and he would be right there. I don't know how long it took him to get there, All I know is there were 6 cars involved, and I was hit, several times. The result was, Back Sprain, Concussion, Whiplash, Memory Loss, and lots and lots of rehab for all of it. I am so blessed that it wasn't as bad as it could have been. There were accidents everywhere that night- I am also so very blessed that our Jeep was fine, except for some minor repairs.
7 months later, I am still dealing with the head injury this accident caused. I have something called Post Concussive Syndrome, which involved headaches that never go away, slowed speech, and memory loss. It's not horrible though- most people wouldn't even notice, unless you know me well. The worst of it happens when I am overtired, stressed, excited, or my blood glucose level is elevated. Other than that, I am pretty good. I am not cleared for martial arts yet, but thankfully am cleared for Yoga- as long as it isn't some of the really crazy stuff.
All l know, is I am truly blessed!
CRASH, BANG, BOOM
Ok, So I started a post at the beginning of the year, and tried to promise that I would blog more.. yeah. That Didn't happen. Why? Well, number one I am busy. Number two- I start a blog, think it doesn't make sense, worry that it doesn't make sense, and say "to heck with it, no one reads this thing anymore anyway." I then take a break from blogging for years at a time, and wish when I come across a blog I ABSOLUTELY ADORE that I would have blogged more.
So what's been going on lately? Let me just fill you in on the last 30 days. My brain has a hard enough time remembering that far :)
I started Yoga. -Insert pretty pose here-
In an effort to ground myself, become more flexible, and shed some of the (I've been married and too busy to care about what I look like) weight. I need to get back to where I was when I was actively studying martial arts, I can't just dive into it, because I don't want injuries...hence, a great friend of mine invited me to come to a yoga class she takes. After much deliberation, I went. I was nervous, but excited at the same time. Let me just cut to the chase- I was made much less nervous when I found that the Yoga instructor is also my Martial Arts instructor's sister! Yup, I knew her already! So anyway, I've been going for about the last month- and even though I have frustrations with it, and hate it a good chunk of the time (this will be a completely different post) I still go, and I still deep down, LOVE it.
I went to a breath work class last Thursday... I have never done anything like that, but in an effort to help with my lymphedema, and also in further grounding myself and finding a deeper meditation, I tried it. HOLY CRAP IT WAS WIERD!!!! Again, this will be in another post...
What I really wanted to discuss was what happened after the breath work class…
It was about 9:00pm when the breath work class ended. it had been raining, and snowing a tiny bit while I was held up in that oh so very interesting class- the roads however, were clear, and I wasn't nervous. I was too hyped up from trying to process what had just happened for the last two hours. I said my goodbyes to those that I knew, grabbed my blanket and pillow (Required for the class) and headed to the Jeep. John and I usually talk on the phone whenever I am headed to or from somewhere- especially if it is in an area that I don't normally travel. I quickly called him (I have a headset, no laws are broken here) and started explaining the events that just took place. As I got closer to home the snow started to fall again, and quite a bit harder. No worries, I am in the Jeep and it does GREAT in bad weather. On my way home from Yoga, I usually turn onto North Temple from 300 W, right where the Overpass and the Trax Station are. I headed the same direction from this class. Up until this point this has never been an issue, although this was pretty much the first storm of the year. As I got closer to this area, I heard myself say "don't turn here, go a different way." Of course, being that I was so involved in the story that I was telling, I didn't listen. I turned onto North Temple and was immediately hit with ice, lots and lots of ice. I slowed right down and tried to breathe. Still talking to John, I figured I would be just fine. I advanced up the overpass, and immediately slid into the cement barrier. I shrieked and told John what was happening as my heart began to race and my hands clenched the steering wheel as tight as they could- like that was going to save me. I corrected myself, and slowly moved forward, making sure i stayed in my lane and straight. Things were going fine and BAM! I was hit from behind, knocking me forward and sliding, back into the cement barrier. There was nothing I could do, but try to keep straight, as I slid down the hill. Cars behind me hitting each other, which eventually sent the one that hit me originally back into the side of me. I kept hitting the cement barrier, and hoping that things were going to turn out fine. I looked in the lane next to me, and cars were sliding down it backwards. This was bad. John said that I was screaming on the phone, and he told me to calm down, and he would be right there. I don't know how long it took him to get there, All I know is there were 6 cars involved, and I was hit, several times. The result was, Back Sprain, Concussion, Whiplash, Memory Loss, and lots and lots of rehab for all of it. I am so blessed that it wasn't as bad as it could have been. There were accidents everywhere that night- I am also so very blessed that our Jeep was fine, except for some minor repairs.
7 months later, I am still dealing with the head injury this accident caused. I have something called Post Concussive Syndrome, which involved headaches that never go away, slowed speech, and memory loss. It's not horrible though- most people wouldn't even notice, unless you know me well. The worst of it happens when I am overtired, stressed, excited, or my blood glucose level is elevated. Other than that, I am pretty good. I am not cleared for martial arts yet, but thankfully am cleared for Yoga- as long as it isn't some of the really crazy stuff.
All l know, is I am truly blessed!
Sunday, April 6, 2014
Well…Hello Blog….
Ok,
so I think blogging is no longer a "thing" for most everyone. Sad thing is, I LOVE reading other people's blog posts!!! I know it should inspire me to continue in my own blogging journey….but let's face it. I get busy and focused on everything else in life..and this poor blog goes untouched. So… to all of my blogging friends, Here I ask you to take a moment once a month, to dust off the keys, and SAY SOMETHING. (seriously it will feed my addiction) And I in return will try to do the same ;)
There is more to tell… I am working on all of that Right…NOW!
so I think blogging is no longer a "thing" for most everyone. Sad thing is, I LOVE reading other people's blog posts!!! I know it should inspire me to continue in my own blogging journey….but let's face it. I get busy and focused on everything else in life..and this poor blog goes untouched. So… to all of my blogging friends, Here I ask you to take a moment once a month, to dust off the keys, and SAY SOMETHING. (seriously it will feed my addiction) And I in return will try to do the same ;)
There is more to tell… I am working on all of that Right…NOW!
Saturday, November 24, 2012
Another year has gone by...
Ha ha!
I used to harp on my sister for not blogging, because I absolutely LOVE reading her stuff! I don't think I can harp on her anymore- she has actually posted stuff before me now. I would be lying if I said that I was waiting for her to start blogging again before I did. We could always pretend though *wink wink*
A lot has happened in a year I must admit... Some day maybe I will try to catch it all up- but today is probably not going to be that day. Just know, that it has been filled with happy moments, very sad moments, knee surgery, and trying to stay sane :)
One of the great things that has happened though- John and I finally met with our bishop. We have been in the ward for over a year and a half and and it is still like we are strangers to everyone. Honestly getting asked if you are new almost every Sunday gets a little old. Are we that invisible???
I have been struggling with the fact that I don't feel a part of the ward. I feel like I am not contributing because I don't have a calling. I came from a ward where it wasn't uncommon for me to have multiple callings at a time, and I loved it! I explained all of this- and wouldn't you know it, I was extended a call and will be set apart this Sunday :) I can't say what it is yet... just know that it's a calling that feels like home to me :)
Thanksgiving was awesome! Mom always does a super fantastic job with the food- and we were able to have the kids with us for a bit. We ran late getting there because of issues beyond our control, and everyone waited for us- it sure made us feel special! The food was so good, John, Ty and I went back to Mom and Dad's for leftovers last night :) Now it is my turn to fix dinner for them :) Mac and Cheese here they come! Ha ha ha!!! Seriously, I will try to make something good :)
I used to harp on my sister for not blogging, because I absolutely LOVE reading her stuff! I don't think I can harp on her anymore- she has actually posted stuff before me now. I would be lying if I said that I was waiting for her to start blogging again before I did. We could always pretend though *wink wink*
A lot has happened in a year I must admit... Some day maybe I will try to catch it all up- but today is probably not going to be that day. Just know, that it has been filled with happy moments, very sad moments, knee surgery, and trying to stay sane :)
One of the great things that has happened though- John and I finally met with our bishop. We have been in the ward for over a year and a half and and it is still like we are strangers to everyone. Honestly getting asked if you are new almost every Sunday gets a little old. Are we that invisible???
I have been struggling with the fact that I don't feel a part of the ward. I feel like I am not contributing because I don't have a calling. I came from a ward where it wasn't uncommon for me to have multiple callings at a time, and I loved it! I explained all of this- and wouldn't you know it, I was extended a call and will be set apart this Sunday :) I can't say what it is yet... just know that it's a calling that feels like home to me :)
Thanksgiving was awesome! Mom always does a super fantastic job with the food- and we were able to have the kids with us for a bit. We ran late getting there because of issues beyond our control, and everyone waited for us- it sure made us feel special! The food was so good, John, Ty and I went back to Mom and Dad's for leftovers last night :) Now it is my turn to fix dinner for them :) Mac and Cheese here they come! Ha ha ha!!! Seriously, I will try to make something good :)
Friday, January 20, 2012
First post of the year!
Wow, January is almost over and this is the first time I have even touched my blog since... November? So much has gone on, and so much went on last year that I feel like I am still trying to get my head to stop spinning.
So far in January we have helped family move, spent $$$ fixing my car, spentntimenwith Ty (I wish Deserae would join us some time too) and I have started teaching martial arts again at West High *insert BIG smiley face here* I don't have very many students as of yet, but I sure do love the ones that are with me right now.
I have also decided that this year there will be no "new years resolutions" made by me. They never last and it is a sure fire way for me to fail when I make them. Instead, I have decided that this year is going to be dedicated to making better choices. Whether they are physical, mental, spiritual, or emotional.. I will make a better choice every day, and continue on with those choices. It is a win-win.
My lunch break is over and I have to get back to the office... So Leo gnfor now.
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